My ever-growing relationship with fitness
I know you’ve probably noticed the fitness craze on pretty much every social media platform, and it’s probably even inspired you to take better care of yourself. If that is the case EFFING GREAT!
I hate seeing so much criticism from the public when a woman (or man) says they’re trying to get more fit, or just overall live a healthier lifestyle. When I scroll down I see comments on their posts that say things like ‘it’s nothing wrong with you though (insert eyeroll emoji)’ ‘what is it with everyone and being skinny these days’ ‘what’s up with the fitness FAD?’. I personally feel like attention is finally being brought to the importance of living a healthier lifestyle.
For a long time, I had an unhealthy relationship with fitness (or working out). Let’s dig into some background before I continue. Growing up I always stayed involved with some sort of sport. I started Taekwondo at the age of 5, dabbled in track for a few years as a teenager, messed around with basketball and even some tumbling (self-taught. Shouldn’t have tried that lol). I had body image issues as a child and as teen.
This led to a downward spiral of mistakes physically and mentally. Around the age of 16 I decided I wanted to get really into working out. Now the idea was great, however, I went about things entirely the wrong way. I would work out 3 times a day, no calorie counting just cut my meals down to around 2 a day with minimal water. Because I thought drinking loads of water would add to my water weight….. HORRIBLE!!! It got so bad that after a while I would feel tired all the time, hungry all the time, and exercise became more of a chore than something you should do to relieve stress.
I became a slave to this want– This need–and no matter how long I would exercise, or how long I’d starve myself I was never satisfied. This went on for a few months, and sure I lost weight but mentally I couldn’t take it anymore! I completely stopped everything, no more cardio 3 times a day and no more cutting calories. Thankfully my genetics didn’t let me pick up too much unhealthy weight during this point of my life, but I definitely took the time to develop a healthier relationship with my mind and body. I told myself I’d never workout again until I loved myself as I was first. That’s exactly what I did too.
Around the age of 17 I started with playing basketball at the gym twice a week. I made some great friends and actually enjoyed sweating my brains out. Sadly, my knees wouldn’t allow me to go very far with this, but it was a great start to my fitness journey. Not long after getting my knees checked out I picked up yoga as kind of a physical therapy I could do from the comfort of my own home. It didn’t take long before I developed this deep love for the ashtanga yoga practice. It was like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. This discipline, this peace with everything, knowing everything is and will be okay no matter what I face. It was a game changer!!!
Yoga truly helped me see myself in a different light. No one could make me feel like I wasn’t good enough, at that time I could truly say I was completely comfortable in my own skin. I started lifting when I was 19, started to help build quad strength for more knee stability, but it didn’t take long for me to get hooked. These days I spend so many hours a day doing yoga I barely have time for lifting anymore lol but it’s still a part of my workout plan. Needless to say, since then my knowledge of anatomy and physical fitness/health has skyrocketed. Now I know there is so much more to learn, heck I still have to get my certification as a legit trainer! I just hope through my journey I can help inspire others to take their first steps towards living a better healthier life. My relationship with fitness is ever-growing and always changing, it’s changed my life for the better and I believe everyone should get a taste of what that feels like for themselves.
With love always -Diya